I started thinking, after looked back at what I wrote in my grimoire about my experiences with Lucifer, I should start to connect with him more about this path.
I need to start working with Lilith and to get to know her.
Even though god wants to lead me away from this path... he will never be able to lead me away or manipulate me.
Trying to convert me to christianity will never work on me. I will never turn away from Lucifer and Lilith. They are the ones that I will follow for the rest of my life. They are my guides. Are the ones that I will go to when I need help.
True guides like Lucifer and Lilith will never turn away from those who want to truly follow them. Those who want to truly follow them; will want to continue to learn from them and learn about them. Show true devotion to them can be such a wonderful feeling.
Let Lucifer into your life and let him guide you to a better life. Let him teach you the real truth so YOU can free yourself from the bondage and slavery of god. The truth will set you free if you listen to what he teaches. But it is only you that can decide to let him guide you.
He is a great spirit who leads people to the right direction. That right direction can bring great things into your life, but you must stay dedicated to him and to have a heart to follow him. Also, the one thing you must learn; is to never go to him just for what you want. Showing him how greedy you are will make him want to turn away. A wonderful spirit like him who wants to help and guide; you should never turn away from that. Be kind to Lucifer and he will show the same to you.
Always remember to be thankful for what Lord Lucifer and Lady Lilith had given us. They wanted to show us the truth so we can be Free from the bondage and slavery of god.
Lucifer and Lilith do not wish to see anyone become a slave of god. They will not force anyone to follow them. They want people to come to them of their own free will so they can learn from them and work with them closely.
They are the two great spirits who want to help guide people to a better path. They want to help make people's lives better so they can live a better life.
Thank them for the great things they have done for you.
It was the other day that my step mom messaged me on twitter telling me that she "NEEDED" to get in touch with me, which I knew it was a load of bullshit. It was just a way to get me to answer her. For the past few months she has been using accounts on IG and on Twitter with different usernames hoping to get information from me. I am tired of her trying to use me and thinking that I will fall for every fucking thing.
I was going to contact Lucifer about this but what I felt from him was not to worry about contacting him at all. He wants me to forget about her and focus on other things that mean more.
I would love to erase her from my mind so I wouldn't have to ever think or even worry that she is trying to invade my life ever again.
Every time I hear about other parents accepting their sons and daughters for being Gay, Bi, Lesbian, Trans, etc, I end up getting pissed because I remember when I was 16 telling my step mom that I am Bi Sexual, she kept telling me that I am straight. Maybe it is time that I need to stop giving a damn because I know my step mom will NEVER accept me for being Bi. And that is fine. To her, it was ok for people to be Gay, Bi, Lesbian, Trans, etc, but when it was me, it is like, Oh No you are going to be Straight. She basically wanted me to grow up wanting me to be like her. She wanted me to be straight, love going to church, and love christ. I became the complete opposite of what she wanted me to be and I am glad I became the opposite of what she wanted me to be.
For years, she and the family tried to keep me from know anything about Lucifer. She wanted me to believe that christ only existed. To only believe that christ only existed is pretty sad. jesus has never helped me with my life and nor my step mom either. I was basically led to suffer in for those years.
But you know, how can you trust people like them who never wanted to show you support for who you are. My step mom has defended people against me and you know how disgusting that is? IT IS REALLY FUCKING DISGUSTING. I am glad she is out of my life and I am glad that I cut all contact with her a few years ago. That was the best thing I have ever done with my life even though the crazy bitch has been stalking me online since ever I got with my husband in person in April 2014.
I have learned that if your parents don't except you for who you are, there are other people who will give a damn.
Back in September 5th, 2012 Lucifer revealed himself to me so I can get to know him and learn much about him. For those few months I have been following him, an unknown spirit that was unfamiliar to me came from gods realm to try to get me to convert to Orthodox Christianity. They have confused me and even tried to get me to think that it was Lucifer trying to get me to go back to Christianity even though he was trying to warn me not to leave this path or even listen to that spirit but being so confused... I did convert. I was a beginner Satanist, I really had no idea what I was doing at the time, especially that I had no idea Lucifer existed before he revealed himself to me.
For a while being an Orthodox Christian, at one point I masturbated and then something came to my mind. What if Lucifer made me do it and what if he wanted me to sin against god? After that had happened, I went back to the Orthodox Church to talk to the priest what I have done. And you know what he told me that surprised me "You controlled your own actions". Yes, It was shameful to have blamed Lucifer for that act but it is a lesson I have learned, don't blame others for your own actions because it may end up backfiring on you.
After coming back to Satanism on December 5th, 2013... I have learned so much about christianity. They try to brainwash you and get you to think that Lucifer makes you do all these acts like masturbating, killing humans or animals, sex before marriage, etc. But what many of these Christians need to learn is that, it was YOU who had done that act, NOT LUCIFER. Before you even try to blame Lucifer, think of the act that you have done, learn that it was you and not him. Because one day, you will feel so ashamed for blaming him, that you will wish that you have never had done that. You will wish that you could take it back.
A lot of people may have thought about this question before. And of course, that question would be a good one to think about since a lot of people who don't exactly have an altar to do rituals. And yes, performing rituals are very important.
If you do not have an altar, another way you can talk to Lucifer is through meditation. If you do not know how you can meditate, all you have to do is just sit down in a very quiet area and focus on speaking to Lucifer through meditation. And how would you know if he responded? That all depends on how well you focused on trying to meditate.
It was on May 2017 when I got that fortune from a fortune cookie. When I read it, it made think of the Dedication Ritual to Lucifer I was going to perform on Halloween 2017 and I knew it was a sign of something good. I see it that it was more like it was meant to be than anything else. I am glad that I got fortune :)
I am starting to maybe realize that I should probably give a less of a fuck about what people do in the path of Satanism and only focus on Lucifer and Lilith. Though I do find it offensive to see a nazism symbol on Lucifer’s sigil at the same time I shouldn’t give a damn about it. It is true that many people in this path of Satanism can be a true asshole to a leader (That leader is Lucifer). I would love for more people to show at least respect to him but at this point, I am probably going to give less of a fuck about those people who to don't want to truly follow him and learn from him. Some are not worth helping at all.
The idea of selling your soul came from the christians. Christians believe that if you sell your soul to Satan/Lucifer; that he will destroy your soul and then take complete control over your whole life which is a misconception. And obviously, that was a lie made up by the christian preachers to keep their followers in control. Think about this, those who preach about Lucifer; make up lies about him to be able to keep to church in business. They say “Oh the devil is going to destroy you if you give him your soul!” and that is a complete lie. He does not want our souls. He does not want slaves. What he wants is for people to liberate themselves from god’s dominion but it is all up to those to do so. He will not force them.
When people have said they gave their soul to him, they are desperate enough to think they can get whatever they want from him which he will not let any of that slide. If you know Lucifer, he is not the type to give people whatever they want. If you want it then learn how to earn it yourself. And yes, he will help you but you will have to do most of the work yourself.
What he wants are true followers and true followers to show him respect and honesty. Not people who expect to get whatever they want. Many people are completely greedy towards Lucifer, especially when they want to make a pact with him which is exactly the same as selling your soul him. I won’t stop anyone from selling their soul or making a pact with him. Their life and their choice.
I believe that doing rituals on October 31st is the best time to do them. Especially doing a Dedication Ritual to Lucifer. The one thing you NEED to learn is that; when you dedicate yourself to him, you are making a very serious commitment to him. Do not do it just to do it or because other people are doing it. You do it from your heart. You do it because you truly want to follow him and want to work with him for the rest of your life. Remember that when you commit yourself to him, you must always respect him, to never lie to him, and to always to be honest with him.
But before you commit yourself to him, you must learn the real truth about him. You must at least work with him to have gotten to know him for a while. And when you have worked with him for quite some time, think and understand why you would want to work with him. He is a very serious spirit and never to be messed around with. What he wants is a true follower and a serious practitioner to work with him for the rest of their life. He is a leader. He leads those who have chosen to follow him. And when I say “leader”, he is actually a leader. While he leads us, we follow him to learn the real truth and to let him guide us. Never disrespect someone who is a higher being… it will not go so well.
Today I saw someone post the title of the blog post on instagram "Wanting to be celibate for Lucifer/Satan?" and I decided to ask her if she read the description of my post because the titles of the posts I post on instagram; I do not post them just for whatever. Also, in her description she wrote "but of course" so I asked her "Do you know what celibate means?" and the hilarious part was that she blocked me. She probably took offence of it and it is like if you do not know a word then just look it up. jebus yah know?